Seaham Hall (September 29 1814)
‘On receiving your letter I think first of the event which has so nearly touched you and yours, and feel for your Sister, whom I saw once – at Lord Glenbervie’s last year.
I followed you towards the door, meaning to request an introduction to her – but you retreated and I had not the courage to advance.
I remember indelibly every time that we have met – that first morning too, when our impressions so well corresponded.
With you, and you only, I then felt at home – I cannot otherwise express it.
My letters to my Mother at that time, for she gave them to me lately to read, show how much you had occupied my attention – my interest.
Though I tried to see in you what I heard of you, mystery and mischief, your character appeared to me very simple…
At one supper party – where you sat between Lady Melbourne and me, but conversed only with her – I heard you say: “Thank God I have not a friend in the world.”
You knew not the pang which you inflicted on a friend so near. Those words of bitterness chilled me.
When I returned home to solitude I wept over the recollection of them, and prayed that you might receive consolation from a friend below, as well as from a friend above.
I did not think of myself – Love did not enter into my speculations, and was not suspected to be in yours – at least with reference to myself…
My pen is running after my thoughts till it is out of breath…‘
Sources Used:
The Life and Letters of Anne Isabella Lady Noel Byron Ethel Colburn Mayne (London: Constable & Co Ltd 1929)
The Regency Recondite 